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Sunday, February 7, 2010

Today Is My Birthday!

Today is my birthday! Yeah!! I shall be glad and happy…

BUT

Here I am in the office alone… sigh!
It's SUNDAY and it’s weekend baby!! Oh my…

What on earth am I doing here with this load of tick files…?!
Aiii… I have to complete my reports… tomorrow is the deadline… :(

Thank U guys for all the wishes...

Ok! I have to go back to my work AGAIN!... m(_ _)m

Monday, February 1, 2010

Sehari Di Bagan Lalang

Sang suria begitu gigih menyinari di hari petang. Terasa kehangatan pantulan cahayanya. Aku telah tiba di destinasi perjanjian namun tidak kelihatan riak muka kekawan yang lain. Nampaknya terpaksalah aku menunggu mereka. Setelah mengirim beberapa ‘sms’ tetapi masih tiada sebarang jawapan, terus didial panggilan keluar kepada ‘bro’ seorang ini.

“Hello. Kat mana nie? I dah sampai”
“I kat dalam McD nie. Tengah makan. Lapar!”
“Ohh.. OK” Hati kecil berkata, “Dah sampai kenapa tidak bagitau”. Aku mengeluh.

Aku mengorak langkah masuk ke McD. Kelihatan hampir penuh tempat duduk dipenuhi. Dia mesti tengah khusyuk melayan makanannya. “Mana Si Botak nie…?! Ah! Dah jumpa”

“Dah makan ka?!
“Dah. You dah makan ka belum?”
“Belum lagi kot”
“Pergilah beli”
“OK”

Aku membeli set nugget 6 ketul kemudian menemani kawan aku seorang ini. Tidak terasa kelaparan namun kena mengisi perut bagi meneruskan perjalanan nanti. Kawan-kawan yang lain sudahpun tiba. Perjalanan ke destinasi “Bagan Lalang” bermula beberapa ketika kemudian.

Angin bayu memukul ke pantai. Pepohon hijau berayun bagaikan mengikuti ciptaan irama tersendiri. Setelah meneliti kawasan persekitaran, kedengaran enjin dua buah kenderaan dimatikan. Kawasan redup dicari. Selalunya ‘picnic’ kena dilantarkan tikar namun tiada seorang kawan aku yang membawanya. Walaupun ada sedikit kesukaran namun atas kebijaksanaan yang lain, terdampar satu papan meja terbiar menjadi pengganti tikar.

Setelah merehatkan badan seketika, kawan aku yang bergelar taukeh durian terus merasmikan 4 biji durian. Dalam keadaan yang panas terik kami masih mampu membuka selera dengan durian. Durian itu dibeli sewaktu di dalam perjalanan. Aku cuma mampu menatap beberapa ulas durian sahaja. Bukan kerana tidak menyukai durian cuma badan ini akan diundang deman atau sakit kerongkong jikalau berlebihan.



Cuaca sungguh terang dan kelihatan ‘baby crab’ berkeliaran ke sana sini. Angin laut begitu kuat memukul ke pantai. Kelihatan beberapa pengunjung tengah bermain laying-layang. Terasa ingin menyertai mereka tetapi segan.

Aku mula meninjau ke arah penjual laying-layang di simpang jalan. Kelihatan sungguh indah laying-layang dibelai angin kuat. Kawan aku mula mengajak pergi membeli dan bermain dengan yang lain.

Jauh di sudut hati ini terasa riang sekali bagaikan si kecil mendapat apa yang dihasratkan. Setelah membelinya, aku diarahkan menaikkan layang-layang tersebut. Terasa kaku sekali. Setelah mengikuti arahan yang diberi, kelihatan layang-layang 'Smile' menyentuh langit biru. Hati ini tetiba terasa begitu tenang dan bahagia sekali.



“Hheheh… OK ka I pegang tali macam nie?!”
“Ok lah… Eh! U nie tak pernah main laying-layang ka?!”
“Tak pernah!” *Terkelu lidah kawan aku apabila mendengar jawapan aku.

Sememangnya aku tidak pernah bermain laying-layang. Mungkin zaman kanak-kanak aku tidak seindah yang lain. Sejak kecil aku sudah dididik berdikari dan membantu mencari sumber rezeki. Jadi kenikmatan sebegini memang tidak dirasai.

Namun, aku tidak pernah mengeluh. Sekarang aku dapat merasai kebahagian seperti kanak-kanak yang lain. Cuma aku mampu merasainya di hari kemudian. :)


Langkah demi langkah tercatat di pasir lembut ini walaupun kesannya tidak berkekalan. Aku berjalan bertemankan kawan menikmati suasana persekitaran pantai itu.

Waktu hampir senja. Terasa sungguh kelaparan. Kami mula mengorak langkah menuju ke tempat makan yang berhampiran. Sampai di destinasi, terus dipesan makanan laut untuk semua. Bukan sekali pesanan tetapi DUA kali. Enak masakan lauk di sini.


Setelah beberapa jam menatap makanan, kami mula bergerak meninggalkan Bagan Lalang. Bulan purnama menjadi saksi pemergian kita. Kelihatan indah sinarnya menyinari malam.

Kebelakangan ini aku jarang mengukir sebarang senyuman tetapi bukan hari itu. Diri ini terasa tenang, riang dan terhibur dengan gelak-ketawa kekawan semua. Mereka menjadi penghibur yang setia mengubat sebarang kedukaan. Walaupun penat perjalanan pulang namun hati ini tetap riang. :)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Short Vs Long Hair



Last Friday, I met an office (quite good looking lah…) from one of the companies I’m regulating. At first, we were just intro ourselves and discussed on the documents which he brought over. He introduced his boss to me and we had a short chat. We had a short discussion just to clarify certain information. Out of no way, his boss invited me to have a ‘tea tarik’ session and continued our discussion at a better place rather than at the lobby.

The initial intention was just passing the documents that I required and this ‘tea tarik’ session was way not in the picture. I couldn’t join them at my ‘5 star’ cafeteria as I need to catch up another meeting in about 10 minutes. As such, I excused myself and informed them we will have our ‘tea tarik’ session next time.

On my way to the lift accompanied by his boss, out of my surprise his boss commented something.

“Connie, did you ever keep a longer hair before?”, he asked.
I was so surprise but calmly replied back.
“Yes I did!”
Then he said “I think you should keep longer hair”
I said “OK……”

In the lift I was thinking. OMG! What the…. I told my colleague who basically the person in charge of the company before he hand over to me. He was bit mad as for the past 1 year, this office never invited him for any ‘tea tarik’ session but he did to me.

In my mind, I’m still wondering why this guy (the boss) commented that I shall keep longer hair. Short hair better? Or long hair is better?... 0.o

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

MU

“Ohaiyo gozaimasu”
What a cozy morning. Feeling a bit sleepy after pampered myself with delicious roti canai and milo ice. I was just been advised not to take any cold drink in the morning. It is no good to my body and I shall take care of myself. I just nodded.

Back to my workstation which full of files. I need to go through each and every single document in the files to understand the company’s background, progression and updates. Aiii…. A lot need to be done.

Was checking on my FB awhile and realized my friend had posted one video on my wall. A song ‘How can I not love you’ by Joy Enriquez. He commented that “love quotes + song = heartache + tears”. I fully agreed with him as every time I listen to any sad love songs it reminds me of certain occasion. End up indescribable sorrow in my heart.

Michael W. Smith’s song “ I will be here for U”, reminds me of someone. I still remembered I text the whole lyrics of the song to him. My intention was just to let him know that he won’t be alone as I’ll always be around if he needed a listener… “MU”

Saturday, January 16, 2010

.......

Here am I listening to the song ‘Snowflower ‘ by Park Hyo Shin. Couldn’t help it by feeling sorrow. This song has brings me to another angle of the world. Reminds me of something which I longing to keep forever in this little box. Somehow, it leaks out.

On another hand, I was trying to get myself adapting to this new environment. Not to say I’m very busy but it’s the responsibility and the accountability that been placed on my hands. Suddenly, I felt pressure and damn not confident at all. Challenging in a way I’m going to play the role as inspector to supervise companies’ progression. There are eight ‘babies’ under my care and three of them are in critical and suspicion condition. With zero knowledge, I feel damn helpless. In the same time, I don’t know what I shall do. Walking without destiny and my mind is so empty. Really hate having this kind of emotion.

Then, here I am worrying about my friend. Sad when I was been pushed away. I try my best to care about the people surrounding me. Not to say I’m good of doing it but I valued them a lot. But when I received this cold treatment, I felt so disappointed. Knowing that everyone has their own space and may not sharing each problem or issue with you never an issue for me as I respect their privacy. But, it was pain when you been informed not to interfere their life as you have your ‘business’ to be managed. Is this what friendship is for?! If yes the answer, I shall keep my distance away…. Or I shall be selfish living in this world by keeping my love and care…

Monday, January 4, 2010

New Image



Nice hair cut rite!.. I wish to have the same hairstyle but unfortunately only managed to get myself a 'bob cut' before new year....

New hairstyle.. new image (looking 10x younger.. *I wish too..) new year.. new life.. new job... could it be a new Connie?! 0.0

Saturday, December 26, 2009

A Pause

Day has passed but it has seemed to pass much more slowly. Don’t know if Moon is visiting and watching me from the above. Life passes by now like the scenery outside a car window. As any other human being, I breathe and eat and sleep as I always did, but there seems to be no major purpose in my life that requires active participation on my part.

“You are new…. need to be proactive in your work”
“You need to learn fast”
“Sure you will be the black sheep next year PRIME”
“Can’t you be patience… can’t afford to have it now…. So be tolerance and compromise a bit…”
“Wait… wait… wait… Wait.. wait… wait”
“.. u b m someday…”


Those words kept rolling through this head, as if I was rehearsing for a part in a play. How great it will be if all these were just a drama and it ended at the end of a show. Sadly.

*paused

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